feeling the pains of my labor

I want to be wide awake, usually, in the summer. I get happiness at the beach, for some reason, I can just walk miles for hours, almost endlessly, it seems.
Someone told me it's the iodine in the salty air that gives people a lift.
It's such a pain going to out of town doctors. I hate sitting in the chair explaining & convincing docs that "yes ! I need them"
HIPPA law, this "confidentiality law" guards personal medical records from being disclosed. Under this law, the patient must sign a consent form if he permits his records released to another treating physician.
Yet, if one has a history of an overdose, even an accidental one, this information is readily obtainable without the patient's consent. No signature needed from the patient. For this reason, I have to travel way out and see doctors.
I feel as though I am doing something criminal & deceptive.
I understand a doc's not wanting responsibility if a patient is suspect ,but everyone knows you can take anything if you really want to leave the planet.
Circumstances CAN change. Attitudes change,outlook & feelings change. One's life can change from agonizing to fulfilling.
When I was given a script of Xanax 6 mg per day, one doc reprimanded me at my next visit for "taking advantage" of her trust, because I didn't mention the accidental od.
Shouldn't I have been the one feeling mistrust ? (my records released without my knowledge)
I'm very tired of the ordeal.

gone to the birds

I was asking around for an American yellow parrotlet(the European yellow are supposedly less vivid)I got a blue one instead, they seem to sell so fast.
This one is from New Jersey.Melvin is very receptive, eats from my hand. He loves broccoli, but isn't fond of sweet fruits, like Percy.
I'd love to pair one of these guys with a bright yellow female, but they're territorial and temperamental. If there is another male in view of a mating couple, the male may kill his mate with jealousy,Ouch!
Also fledglings must be removed from the father because he may kill male offspring.These birds don't make the best daddies.

Below is granny holding up a sketch she drew of her beagle.(it doesn't look like a dog)You couldn't tell granny that.In the sketch, the dog appears to have 5 legs, but she had explained that one wasn't actually a leg, but a sign of his gender....
Oh granny, I still get a kick out of you.....

favorite dresses

The gown above is a pink silk chiffon,there's a sheath falling from the neckline and it's double skirted. It is one of my favorites. I like the length cause I don't have "good legs"


This dress is embellished with fake diamonds and gold at the neckline. It's got multi layers of stiff crinoline which gives it a flattering shape, but not comfort. It's getting old and I no longer wear it.
I like just-below -the knee to ankle length dresses and prefer a stack heel to high heels & stilettos.
These images are very poor. Someday I'll have to photograph my favorites.