unemployment and idle thoughts

I called my ma on the phone for a holiday greeting. She sounded cold.She's angry because I haven't found any work. Finally she said "You better wisen up boy! And stop talking silly."
I've heard that over and over from pa, my ma and even granny. I knew I had exhausted her patience and ended the call.
I have gotten lazy being unemployed. I miss waking up, showering, brushing my teeth all because I HAD too.
I guess I'm not very disciplined on my own. Doing anything because I really WANT to is just doing essential, basic tasks and letting anything else pile up because I don't care enough.
I've always wanted a cleaning lady. Some of my friends have and I adore those busy ladies. I've never had a girl be interested in cleaning up for me. One of my boyfriendly duties was cleaning the litter boxes every night at the home of one of my girlfriends.
I clean my litter boxes, walk the dogs and I need to sleep in a very fresh, well made bed. If my bed gets cluttered or the sheets are loose and wrinkled or aren't clean enough, it's hard for to sleep, but lately money is tight and I need to eat more than I need to spend at the laundromat.
I'm living off my savings.
There is no money for indulgence. No new dresses, no French brie, no Danish blue cheese.
My rent money is my main concern as long as it's paid, I feel alright.
The factories in my area were all renovated and converted into apartment buildings. There are so many vacant businesses, it's like Death Valley. I don't think Obama is to blame, though it would help if he were tougher and more determined. It's all this financial emptiness. We really have to start from nothing.
China is the super power of the world and America exports nothing, but imports everything.
It's been months since I awoke in a lacy, frilly night gown and strutted to the bathroom stylishly. I'm too frustrated by other things to miss it much.
Being out of work right now is nothing to be ashamed of.There are the lucky ones and then there are all the rest of us.
I'd love to skip out and join OWS full time.
I used the wrong bottle of drops and instead of putting my moisture drops in, I put my contact lens washing solution in my eyes and my contacts got stuck and were very had to remove. I could see my own clear membrane being pulled as I peeled them out. I bought a 15 dollar pair of glasses online and waiting two weeks for the delivery. The girl taking my prescription barely spoke English and I hope she got it right. Good luck to me on my new pair of glasses.
I hope 2012 is a better year financially, but I know it won't be.
I applied for a dishwashing job at the bar down the street, maybe they'll call...